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Yellows, oranges and reds

The colourful twist of Mother Nature

Rain, wind and chilly temperatures

Everyone gathers inside

Homemade soup, fireplaces and fluffy blankets

The soothing effect of a warm infusion

Tea, coffee, what is it gonna be?


Looking back at those summer days

 Struggling to stay in the moment

Overlooking what’s coming next

Knowing that with the power of nature

The leaves will for an instant be free

Until they land and peacefully wait for the end.





  1. December 2nd 2009, 4:10 pm: mammography
  2. January 9th 2010, 11:00 am: echography
  3. January 9th 2010, 11:30 am: biopsy
  4. And then, 1 month of WHAT IF….

Waiting, thinking, crying, living, appreciating, fearing, embracing, realizing, loving, existing, wishing, snowshoeing, writing, hugging, breathing, sharing, laughing, caring, worrying…

A rollercoaster ride.

But mostly, putting my life into perspective. A good thing actually. For that reason, I embrace that long, painful and scary process.

Like most people, I’m invincible. Well, I think I am. Such a terrible thing couldn’t possibly happen to me. Or could it?

I’ve been in sports all my life. Eat healthy food everyday. Well, I may have chocolate cake once in a while and I do loooove coffee, but gotta live a little! Makes for happy times! Plus, I don’t drink (miss beer and red wine, but migrains forbid!), never smoked, try to go to bed at 10:15 at night, unless my Twitter friends have too much to say to me…

But I know that all that has nothing to do with it. Cancer hits anyone, anytime. No distinction, sometimes no warning. I knew that. But still, couldn’t picture myself as a patient, with a plastic bracelet around my wrist. I just couldn’t. Or simply didn’t want to.

       6. February 6th 2010, 11:00 am: results

ALL GOOD. I can keep on living. But somehow, I’m changed, realizing I’m one of the lucky ones. I’ve got no merit, just didn’t get picked.

Thank you my friends for all your kind words and unbelievable support. Got tons of replies Saturday night. Overwhelming!

How did I celebrate?

Snowshoe- Quick -clear blue sky- dinner with Pat- chocolate cake!



Mamma Mia!

From Felt to Wilier. American-German to Italian.

Kind of like switching families. As much as I enjoyed my ride with my Felt, I’m ready to try something new. Makes me nervous though. Big time nerve wracking!  Like the beginning of any new relationship, I’m questioning my move:

 Will I be fond of it? I mean fall head over hills in love with it? Will it fit my kind of riding? How aggressive will it be? Comfortable? Will I be good enough for it? Do I deserve it? How long will our passion last? Can I afford it? And finally, will my back hurt as much while riding?

Even if I know it’s for the best, I still feel insecurities taking over the excitement.

I’ve always been that way. For me, it’s actually a positive state of mind! I like to process information in a very structural way:

  • 1- I’m always sceptical at first (Didn’t say pessimist). Unless you win my heart, I’m a no!
  • 2- Give me the facts, I need to gather the information and analyse the pros and cons. And don’t rush me…
  • 3- After, I let my feelings come into play. By then, I know what’s right for me.
  • 4- At last, decision time: once I made up my mind and there is no way back. No doubt. No regrets.

So now, I still have one day to analyse the Izoard (not the Mortirolo anymore). The order will take place on Thursday. Until then, I’ll be juggling through the 4 steps.

Good news, I’m already done with the first three so it’s all up to my guts…

Good vibes, Izzy belongs to me! Yep, already got a nickname!

PS1: If you want to check it out: 

PS2: Thanks to @coachpatwells for making this huge upgrade possible and giving me all the info I need, merci!





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