- December 2nd 2009, 4:10 pm: mammography
- January 9th 2010, 11:00 am: echography
- January 9th 2010, 11:30 am: biopsy
- And then, 1 month of WHAT IF….
Waiting, thinking, crying, living, appreciating, fearing, embracing, realizing, loving, existing, wishing, snowshoeing, writing, hugging, breathing, sharing, laughing, caring, worrying…
A rollercoaster ride.
But mostly, putting my life into perspective. A good thing actually. For that reason, I embrace that long, painful and scary process.
Like most people, I’m invincible. Well, I think I am. Such a terrible thing couldn’t possibly happen to me. Or could it?
I’ve been in sports all my life. Eat healthy food everyday. Well, I may have chocolate cake once in a while and I do loooove coffee, but gotta live a little! Makes for happy times! Plus, I don’t drink (miss beer and red wine, but migrains forbid!), never smoked, try to go to bed at 10:15 at night, unless my Twitter friends have too much to say to me…
But I know that all that has nothing to do with it. Cancer hits anyone, anytime. No distinction, sometimes no warning. I knew that. But still, couldn’t picture myself as a patient, with a plastic bracelet around my wrist. I just couldn’t. Or simply didn’t want to.
6. February 6th 2010, 11:00 am: results
ALL GOOD. I can keep on living. But somehow, I’m changed, realizing I’m one of the lucky ones. I’ve got no merit, just didn’t get picked.
Thank you my friends for all your kind words and unbelievable support. Got tons of replies Saturday night. Overwhelming!
Snowshoe- Quick -clear blue sky- dinner with Pat- chocolate cake!